Missing Daddy

It's only now that I truly understand the biological need for monogamy. I can say confidently that this is the first time in Rich and my eight year relationship that I've truly needed him. I've always wanted him, of course. And although having a baby makes alone time almost impossible, it also adds depth and dimension to our existing relationship. I think both of us are impressed by how the other handles parenting responsibilities and marvel at the different strengths that have come to the surface.

And even though I have a lot of support from family and friends while Rich is out of town, nothing, absolutely nothing can fill the void. I wish I could say that I was confident and strong enough to handle everything on my own wonderfully, but I can't. It's hard to admit that, but it's the hands down truth.

Rich is the perfect balance to my emotional, attachment parenting. He brings reason and structure and perspective. Those things just can't be truly accessed over the phone. This, I can see now, is where true partnership begins. And I need my partner. He's coming home tonight. Hallelujah!!!